Sunday, November 30, 2008 '

memories

Friday, November 28, 2008 '

counting down....

sianed... nxt week damn busy ! got meeting with wong and VIP group then must settle F&B list ! the worse is no one is helping me with F&B ! is like so many F&B IC but all busy . ah nvm ! we are all busy with life . i also . so cant complain . haven been to meetings . nxt week i try my very best k ? SHIT ! camp like nearer and nearer... a bit worried ! i'll miss home ! coz its at campsite . i dun like=( anyway i looking forward to the end of camp and it will all be over ! i hope . but i think a bit impossible since we are not having all our accrediation in the camp . think we still have to go back every sat for lessons for footdrill and OA . sianzzz... so when exactly will it end ! ahhh ! im so stuck at MOI ! my mind blank siaz !=( first time so helpless in terms of red cross . i tot i will survive but.... nono ! i will survive ! *sing* i've got the red cross spirit deep in my heart, deep in my heart ! ok im so crap ! must think of future ! JWSS RCY needs us ! i can do it ! though a bit not convincing enough=( nvm... will take a step at a time...

Wednesday, November 26, 2008 '

OA camp 2008

ytd had lunch at 12plus, then in the evening went to skl for Outdoor Activities camp . camp was fun ! Mr wong was very welfare to us the seniors and the NCOs . We had steamboat for dinner ! but i was aldy starving like mad coz we only start eating at 1am . and my last meal was like 12 hours ago . well nvm . cause we had good food ! and as usual Mr wong plan for a night activity . so we all woke them up at 2.45am to count sago seeds . joker right ? hahaz ! and we ended up bathing at 3 plus am ! OHMY ! the water was freezing ! arghhh ! shiver like hell brrrr ! then i tried to keep my eyes open and do some proposal but i finally gave up at 5am . my eyes help but my brain are not working . i cant seem to concentrate . anyway slept at 5am but there was some commotion going on at 5.45am so i was like~sian~ . i want sleep ! so end up sleeping at 6am . then we woke up at 7.20am . i was almost half dead ! tried to keep myself busy coz i was falling asleep . haha . in the end i didn fell asleep ! manage to survive till i reach home ! slept for 4 hours straight ! so like woohoo ! lolz ! anyway im gonna upload photos for the camp ! enjoy !=)

Saturday, November 22, 2008 '

Fan Dear ! awww this is so sweet !

i know a woman who's funny & crazy, thoughtful & caring, loving & sharing, as sweet as a baby, a great fren & sis & she is reading this message now ! AND ANYONE WHO DARES COPY ANYTHING (NOT EVEN A SINGLE WORD) FROM THESE, I WILL KILL YOU WITH MY BARE HANDS ! cause its fan dear dear send to me one =) thanks alot ! it really made my day ! oh since im aldy here, shall talk a bit abt VIP10/09 . today went for contact session, was damn tired and didn feel like going at all . have been complaining alot (totally not like me) . thought of quitting VIP . but aft i got into my group, i found that things weren't that bad . in fact things were good=) but dun worry, jm if you wan run, i will pei you=) we promise that to each other mahz=) anyway was very tired . sianzzz... wan to sleepppp..... bye !

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you only want it cause its over

well, i have read your letter, but didn think much abt it too . time will prove everything bahz . coz i dun wan to decide whether to forgive you just because you wrote me that . anyway i want to see if you really want to be my fren and see if you will give the aiya-i-dont-give-a-damn attitude agn . if i forgive you so easily, then there will confirm be a nxt tym ! CONFIRM ! i noe you too well ? and dont ever make promises like i swear wont have nxt tym ! i promise ! hello ! promises are meant to be KEPT ! not say say n forget ! SO DUN EVER PROMISE ANYTHING YOU CANT KEEP ! esp to me ! n i oso want to see whether you will say these : aiya i aldy said sorry and i oso write letter to her aldy ! then she dun wan forgive me, what you wan me to do ? aiya dun care lahz, dun wan fren then dun lorz, hate me then hate me lorz . OhMY ! i can aldy imagine you saying this with the irritating tone ! PLEASE ! this shows you've got no sincerity can ? You are only saying sorry for the sake of it, n obviously you wrote the letter cause you were told to ! since you didn bother, why should i waste my time to ? and mayb GOD also doesn want me to forgive you too ? cause when i was so angry with crystal and she apologize, i couldn accept it at first . but somehow julius msg me this : Take no revenge and cherish no grudges against your brother . you shall love your neighbour as yourself . izit GOD or Coincidence ? i choose to believe it is GOD . but when you gave me the letter till i read it, nobody said anything or msg me anything related . mayb it is time to see your true colours ? mayb...

Wednesday, November 19, 2008 '

Hesitation~

tml is thurs, then fri, then sat ! OHMY ! Sianed ! should i go ?VIP(Volunteer Instructors Programme) VIP, haiz . mayb i dun have a choice either . cause mr wong aldy came up with all the plans for nxt yr ! cant say what it is cause it is confidential . but anyway i just got this thought . mayb im trying to run away again ! LOL ! i told mards or jiamin(or both) abt it . how can mr wong come up with so many plans . there are so many what if e.g what if i cant pass the VIP ? What if something happens and I suddenly cant go for the camp ? what if what if.... aiya there are just too many what if lahz . actually, its me lahz ! finding excuses . mayb i haven completely grow up . not ready to face up to problems and difficulties . or mayb i shld say i dun wan to go thru it again but still it is unable to face up to difficulties bahz . mmm... it is time to grow up ! but at least i dun cry my way thru cause it nv works ! okok ! gotta clear out all these ! face it once and for all ! you reap what you sow !

Tuesday, November 18, 2008 '

AM I JUST A TOOL FOR YOU ?

Im damn pissed ! seriously ! i have never been so angry before ! Not even to Crystal ! So when you needed someone to talk to, when you are stress abt your problems, ESP WHEN YOU NEED HELP, you come and find me . i help you, i got fucking stress up over your problems but i crack my head to help you find solutions, to listen to you and tried to keep to the promise of being your listening ear . and this is what i got ? FUCK OFF ! we promise to listen to each other and help each other but why am i the only one doing it ? whats worse was all this started because of your girlfriend ! so when i wanted to talk to you and explain what i meant on my last last post abt the friends thingy, what did you say ? DUN BOTHER, DUN WAN TO UNDERSTAND LATER I MORE STRESS THEN WHITE HAIR COME OUT. Fuck lahz ! i have never been so vulgar before ! i only use vulgarities when im joking and not so much when im angry ! So i not stress when i help you with your problems ? So im superwoman ? with NO feelings n emotions for myself ? i cant be sad or angry ? i cant talk to you when im sad ? you cant listen ? corrections, is you DUN BOTHER to listen ! and for goodness sake, this is my FUCKING FIRST TIME trying to ask you to listen ! No point ! just get out of my life !

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bad day =(

woke up at 8am in the morning, but was having a damn bad headache and my forehead was feeling a little warm . took panadole and went back to sleep . and woke up at 12.30 . oh well, half a day is gone . mmm.. i wanted to blog abt this ytd but didn cause i was feeling very tired . it is abt the last two days ! was very excited on friday cause i was going to help my fren out on sat n sun ! and most importantly is that i will be working with victoria and lumpy ! haha ! anyway it was really fun ! and i seriously hope there will be a chance for me to work with them again and hopefully the rest of us can join ! vera ann, go party n nv come work with us =( Min Min nxt tym nid help call us again ! PLEASE ! =) oh ya ! i wont make this promise as im afraid that i cant keep it but i will try my very best to blog often n not let my blog die off again...=(

Monday, November 17, 2008 '

friends ?

as promise, this is the 2nd post . however it might not be as cheerful n happy as the previous one =( well, alot happened recently in church, so much that i will take two days to finish if i go in depth . Anyway i just want to say i am not angry, just sad n kinda lost i guess . If you want to push all the blame on me as always, there is nothing i can do but most importantly THERE IS SERIOUSLY NOTHING I WANT TO DO ABT IT . You blame me for forcing you to tell out the truth, but did you ever realize why is she so F***king angry with you ? You think is because she jealous and can't accept the fact that she has lost to him ? well i tell you, she is not angry at him ! cause she aldy treated him as friend for your sake ! she accepted him ! she is so angry because YOU LIED TO HER ! she gave you so many chances to change and stop lying to her but you nv did cherish . why can't you just admitted it from the start on OCT 10 that you are together ? can you imagine what's her reaction is you waited till her last paper ? another evidence that she was angry because you lied to her was that when you msg her abt it, she congratulated you ! she also like someone else aldy ! she was happy for you n him ! but what triggered everything was when you said it started at oct 10 n you have been lying again ! btw DON'T SAY THAT YOU NV BLAME ME FOR FORCING OUT THE TRUTH ! i was clearing my hp inbox ytd n i saw the msg again ! so care to tell me what the hell you mean by the "SEE LAH" ? don't give me all the crap again ! when i confronted you abt what it meant thru msg, you told me DONT KNOW . Great ans man ! BULLSHIT ! im sad because i really lost all the confidence in all our friendship with everyone n i hate this feeling ! rmb vanessa asked you this : do you think that we will still be like this 10 yrs down the road ? i confidently said yes n you did too ! didn you realize that it is a promise ? well i seriously dont think you do . but i took it as a promise . mayb im the only fool that took it as a promise . i really dont know what to do, lost... i guess all good things must come to an end ? even if it is the most precious friendship n all the happy moments we shared ? i cant let it go cant bear to... i dont think you even BOTHER ! but why i cant be like you ! prove me wrong, prove to me you care ! not by crying and when tears dry up no actions done ! these makes your tears worth NOTHING ! n it seems like you are not sincere ! if crying can help solve all the problems in the world , i wont mind crying throughout my whole life ! face it ! take actions ! i dun wan to let it go....

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New blog ! thank you jie min=)

yeah ! My blog is finally up ! and it is all thanks to CHUA JIE MIN ! seriously thinking of giving her a treat =) thanks a million ! she helped me though im very troublesome =( Anyway for the first post, it will be abt happy happenings =) i shall start with WYD SYDNEY 2008 ! well for those that totally got no idea what i am talking abt, i will tell you . i went Australia (sydney, melbourne and brisbane) in july . well i think you will enjoy photos more than words right ? so go to my friendster account or facebook to see the photos =)
ok now i share a joke . but i think it is only funny for all catholics bahz . Not trying to be religion-cist but it happen in church, so yeah . it abt this girl named .... V ! ok i shall use V ! I will try to explain a bit bahz . The correct procedure when a priest give you a holy communion is to say AMEN ! but this is what happen :
priest : body of christ
V : thank you ! *panic* errr AMEN !
it might not be funny to most i guess but it is really funny if you see it LIVE ! Ohmy ! sometimes i will laugh to myself when i think abt it ! ok i guess this is madness =) ok i shall stop ! nxt post will be coming right up !

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Im 18 and Im From XNPS, JWSS and...
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